Alright, nothing much has changed... generally, the new year started with a movie and a very scared dog... the poor thing's terrofied of fireworks.
Anyways, one of my ex-friends told me it was time for a change (yes Amarantha it was you) So I decided that it wasn't worth it. All this mess, all the fighting. From now on, I will completely stop caring about wath other people think about me. I am who I am, and if anyone has a problem with that, it's not my problem. You can't live with the way I behave? fine, then don't, if you can't stand my obsessions, fine, then go. Leave. I'm ready to make such sacrifices. I dare you to test me. I dare you to try make me change. As I've said so many times before, there's been to much changes around me, to much shit I had to deal with. It changed me enough. Yes, it made me colder and crueler than I already was. And yes, I won't have any friends left ... probably... but hey, if you can't stand me, you don't have to.
So what if that sounds childisch. 'cause maybe (and I wondered if you ever thought that through Amarantha) just maybe, I never had the chance to be a child. Maybe I've spent my entire life fighting people, trying to find a quiet place where I could be me. Maybe that's why I still behave like a child at occasions. But of course, you're so busy trying to be a normal teenager, a normal adult, that you can't possibily understand that. Yes, you've been through some shit to, I know, but what you, Amarantha, had to deal with, IS NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT I'VE GONE THROUGH. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

Btw: Amarantha, I've put you on the white list again, don't care what you do anymore, for as far as I'm concerned you spam all around my facebook and stuff...